I am retiring as a moderator this week.
I made this decision with my heart a few months ago, made it with my head and let my fellow moderators know a few weeks ago, and now that the paperwork is sorted out, I'm letting the rest of the community know. The decision reaches back farther though, and I think has been percolating in my head for at least the past year.
Some of you may have noticed me fading to the back more and more. I think I can trace this back to when I first started fading out of chat, which… was a good while back. Part of this long fade out has been the pull of other things outside the site, and some of that has been the site just not needing my personal moderation contributions as much as I felt it did when I first started, and some has just been the lens of moderation taking me too much away from the parts of the site that drew me here in the first place. The community has grown substantially since 2015. Though engaging less with the site has been a bit sad, seeing how much the community has matured and taken up tasks I used to think only I cared about has been a joy.
RPG.se has been a regular part of my life since 2010, and for the last four years as a moderator it has been a daily part of my life. The gravity of the moderator's diamond has been a privilege and a weight during all those days, and I'm ready for a change of pace.
I miss little things like being able to just vote to close or reopen a question, without it being the Big Deciding Vote. I'm looking forward to being able to engage with edits or comments on a marginal post, without weighing whether I should use bigger mod tools — or wondering if by making an appearance but not using bigger tools, other community members will see that as a signal. I'm looking forward to participating as just one input into the machine rather than as a mechanic with a heavy override wrench. I'm looking forward to the privilege of not needing to carefully weigh every decision.
I hope to be less active than I've been, but for good reasons: because I am running face-to-face games more, reading more of my too-large games collection, or taking more walks. I hope as well to stay active here, but maybe in a less daily way.
I know the site is in good hands. We have a good moderation team in our three other mods. And I can't have asked for a better community. You have always and continue to make me proud to be a member. Ultimately, the quality of the community here is what made it easiest to set down the responsibility of the diamond: the site doesn't need me, because it has all of you.
Thank you all. It's been an honour and a privilege.